|The little mommies :)|
For about a year I really felt like I was SO good with 3 daughters. Who wouldn't be?! I know I'm so blessed and fortunate to even have 1, let alone 3 but then that feeling crept up on me! I don't want that feeling! I'm sure most woman have that feeling AFTER they have all their kids...right?
|The pregnant Fari ( with Jude)|
I guess as my girls get older and more independent I get more emotional about the whole thing. I don't even understand that though because with each one I can't wait for them to BE more independent! ugh, I'm a mess!!
I often pray that God would change my heart or the circumstances, create a miracle or give me a sense of peace about the family of 5 that He blessed me with. Today I couldn't help but think He was reminding me of what I have and what it would be like if we added one more, right now anyway.
After a long morning at VBS the girls and I headed to Corpus Christi (which is over an hour away from where we live) for an appointment Bella had. I usually go out of my way to find doctors closer to us so we don't have to drive that far but some doctors and their specialties are just not available this far out. Anyway, we ran errands before the appointment, since we were early. Jude was a mess since she didn't really nap and hates the car. You would think after 2 years of driving so far she would get used to it! So we get to the appointment only to find out my paper work is off so we have to reschedule. As my eyes started to tear up and my blood started to boil, I turned around to find Jude stealing some little girls doll, Beau going through my purse looking for gum after I told her to stay out of it and Bellas poor face as she knew my wrath was coming. It was not a good mommy moment for me for sure.
|My family of 5 :)|